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An update

Posted by sarahelliott on May 25, 2009

Well given the negative tone of my last post, I thought I really ought to update on what has been going on here. I passed my first assignment (hurray!), which was a massive relief after all the depressing discussions on the CSU module forum.
Honestly, I’m not very happy with the mark that I achieved, I don’t feel that it really reflects my understanding of what is an ILSC and the role of the TL in creating it. I don’t want to sound like a moaning Minnie though! I’ve never been that great at typical – research based coursework. I’m now beginning to realise (through my reading for this module), that’s because I wasn’t particularly information literate. I didn’t read things and internalise the ideas. I just learned for the purpose of getting the coursework done and then moved on to the next topic.
But, I really felt like I put in a lot of time and effort this time, read and retained a lot of information, modified my mental models, and came on a really long journey from where I was at the start of this course. To be honest, I hadn’t even heard of an ‘ILSC’ before I began this module. In addition to all that, I have taken action – I don’t want to be an inactive student! I have given a presentation to my admin team that follows the ideas of this module and they were inspired by what I shared with them. I have been trying to share my knowledge with them. So, I guess I just don’t think that the mark reflects the progress that I feel I have made in constructing meaning for myself on this topic.
Regarding my computer, well it’s dead! But they rescued my hard-drive, so there is life after death after death!
Overall, everything that I was feeling low about turned out ok in the end. It’s not like me to get so worried about things, but I guess this course really matters to me. I am genuinely 100% interested and engaged in something that I am studying for the first time in my life, I never imagined that I would fail. Once the realisation that failing was a possibility set in, I panicked. But, I am calm again now. Well, to be honest I’m calmish! The second assignment is hanging over me and I’m struggling to get to grips with Part B of it, but then that’s another story!

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